Sigh....what if? Life is too complex...too many variables....I consistently face this problem...never contented...never living for the moment...always living for the next...and that is notgood

Mt blanc-France

5 June 2008

I'm Lee dong Wok/ Angelina Jolie, undercover agent to get close to Osama girl fren/ brad pitt who him/her stored in the toilet bowl. Unfortunately I'm starting to like him/her

A moment of contemplation for my AMS year. Well lotsa shit along the way. But within this year, I've gone to cambodia, shanghai, singapore, australia, holland, switzerland, france for so varied reasons.

Most importantly, I've found God.....:). Continue to lead me my king....-

29 May, 2008

I gurantee you tough times, I gurantee you that at one point of time or another one or both of us might want out. But I also know that if I dont ask you to be mine I'll regret it for the rest of my life because I know you're the one.

Runaway Bride...mmm...nice...

28 May, 2008

Been wrapping up my holland lab work. Let's just say I'm quite relieved that I finally can leave the lab. Enough lab work for me. Its good and all but I'm ready for clinical school. This weekend I'm going on a solo trip to chamonix, Mt Blanc. Oh wells.

quote, " you know OCD is because you got high levels of serotonin and low levels of dopamine, and that also means you're in love. Are you in love?"

Yes I'm.

Correction: high in dopamine, low in serotonin...chuckles

25 May, 2008

Today I went to a small little Anglican church. Well thank God for always putting nice pple beside me during service. I met this lady called Ann and she was really nice and all, got to met a few other ppe also a ex-air stewardness for SIA that married a dutchman...haha..random fact though LKY had a dutchman as an adivsor for economic policies..haha

Well the one thing about the anglican church is that it preached a world church idea...sigh...
Oh and i was commented on for my nice, leading voice by like 3 pple...SYLO!!!!(sing your lungs out) I'm sure I was out of tune...hahahaha

Following your heart

Sometimes we make mistakes, not to learn from them, but to find out whats real, to follow your heart. Mmm. Now I understand.

23 May, 2008

Italians love their coffee even if its vending machined. And I wanna specialize in cardiology.

22 May 2008

Holland, Utrecht Medical Centre. I think my lab supervisor, Mirjam doesnt like me. Haha especially after today. I stumped in abit blur into the lab like all mornings. Then the first thing I had to do was an ELISA. I havent read the protocol. So I asked really stupid questions like why must put 50ul here? haha. Gosh on retrospect I sound dumb. And seriously have a problem with concentrations and moles, i'm so lousy at converting numbers...that i sound like a dumb blonde...not to mention Mirjam is super fast. Argh blame my medical education. And right now I'm stuck at my research. Stuck! ok mark this date. I'll be fine by next week such is life.

Meanwhile, my supervisor says quote from email 'I think it is very exciting. You have essentially confirmed our proteomic data that there are TGFB in the CM and they are biologically active. ' haha no effect leh.

Worst part oil price 134 per barrel...please mum let me buy a motor bike. The world is coming to an end....sigh...

And I've found the coolest plant/tree in the world. You know meal worms? yar imagine a whole tree infested with it and they lay this spiderweb/silk like thing covering the whole plant and then they dangle down all wriggly and gross.. Haha soooo cooool!!! I walk past it everyday and never fail to stare at it....

May 18, 2008

Today is the Lord's day. The chiming of a dozen church bells. Lost in a pretty city. Canals, quaint little cobbled streets, flowers, trees. But no church i walked the wrong direction...I heaved a sigh and decided to follow the most distinct sound of church bells, remembering stories of how God miraculously leads men to places where they need to go.

So i walked stumbling into yet more quaint cobbled streets, then i recognize this church that i stumbed upon. Its the 'domkerk' an icon of Utrecht. Founded in 695AD as a roman catholic church its was taken over by the protestants in 1581. Its architecture was amazing tall catherdrals, an organ that stood 4 stories high, stained glasses of medivel knights and salvation, statues of Jesus on the cross, a wall dedicted to reformers like martin luther and john calvin. What a clash of religion here.

The service was interesting. A trio of men in monk red robes led the singing. Their voice resonating in symphony in the cathedrals(you know how well catherdrals conduct acoustics), together with the organ. Magnificant.

I did not understand much although a kind lady did provide translations for me. The lord's supper was so solemn. Leaven bread though and we all drank from the same chalice with really sweet wine. haha for kids...all in all...God is good...

On a sad note, christianity in holland is in a decline. From what i hear, 60 years ago everyone went to church. Nowadays, less and less people are going and they are mostly old people. Services are turning more liberal, more charismatic, appealing more to the flesh than the spirit You being to wonder, that God has moved away from the western world, perhaps it is time for the east to hear the gospel. As mentioned in mattew 28. But Then. my lord will come to claim his crown.

On a random note, thank God for the dutch colonization in the 1600s allowing christianity to spread abroad....Its amazing how God allows this to happen....using ways which we cannot imagine to fulfil the great comission

15th May, 2008

Keukenhof...no its all real...

13 May, 2008

Its amazing how frail human memory is. I look at the flowers at keukenhof garden, their explosion of colours too complex for me to fully grasp. Haha I mused at the fact that what I see today I probably cant remember down the road. Haha so it was flowers that started this blog...teehee...

Ok my first weekend at holland. Well holland is beautiful- flat grass, cows, sheep, flowers. Lab work oh well is lab work...haha...gosh i sound boring...haha...

12,000 pple dead in in sichuan by earthquake, 20,000-100,000 people affected/dead by cyclone in Mynmar, rising oil/food prices the world falling into recession. You wonder why this world is such a grim place and yet seemingly a lot of us lead lives completely oblivious to these things. (Or is it me that's too affected?) You know putting things into perspective lotsa of us have really a lot to thank for. So always be thankful.

Ok back on an interesting note.
1. I tried a chocolate hash muffin
2. I smoked weed

Oh THC(cannibinoids) its a funny thing. I remember sitting in the train looking at the setting golden sun. Everything( the trees, the field) looked so vivid, so clear, so relaxed everything was so peaceful. Well then i felt seasick cuz everything was so clear. And a funny side effect was getting the 'munchies', ate lotsa chips while on the phone b4 i slept chuckles...Its a funny feeling really...haha... To sum it all, better than getting drunk without the side effects.

3. I cycled amongst really pretty holland green fields with canals and dykes and the sun.
4. I went to keukenhof( the world's prettiest garden) I've decided that penny violet is my favourite flower. Carnations are really pretty. And this really nice flower called 'macrophylia' or 'hyacinth'. Ohhh.....I love flowerss....I'm gonna have lotsa it at my wedding...all kinds...everyone one should come to keukenhof once in their lives...season is from march-may.

Oh and i got to know this lady called Chlelendra from a south american country called surinama(might be wrong). Lotsa immigrants to holland come from netherland colonies like those. haha I'm gonna travel south america one day...then end off in the carribeans...yup my honey moon perhaps chuckles.

Tulips bulbs need cold weather to bloom. Crockett is dutch traditional food. Chinese are ugly. Ang mohs look good. I need to write my thesis.